Been feeling better lately… ish?
Anyways, on another note, true story, I found it humorous at the time.
Last my family had a gathering, I was not single, this time I was, the kids so funny. and I’m not being sarcastic.
Kids: Oh what happened to your boyfriend?
ME: it just didn’t work out?
Kids: Why not?
Me: Life.
Kids: What?
lolll oh children how funny you are… oh man. got a good life out of that…
thought i’d share that bit of humour :P
I don’t think I have depression… but in the last couple weeks it has become quite evident to me.
I have some serious issues…
Seriously…
*sigh*
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f1n2Sj_eKWA
love.
this song describes my situation too well it’s kind of freaky…
justanotherreject asked: I feel like I haven't messaged you in awhile and quite frankly I actually haven't. I've been busy yes, but I didn't forget that I did and would still love to. You seem like you're in a funk and I don't really know what to say for once because I've come to realize the age old, '' it gets better''' doesn't actually help. You deserve more then that, you're a really wonderful,kind, caring person and anyone who doesn't see that seriously needs a reality check.
loll yeah, I haven’t been messaging you either! We’ve both been busy. I’ve been so busy I’ve barely been looking at my tumblr lately :P I’d love to message you more often to! :) Kind of, it’s like a rollercoaster, I’m in it, then I’m out of it. You know distractions are cool like that :P
thanks :) I really appreciate all your support, really. love you bunches and to bits and pieces <3
This is my final decision. Three words for you to really think about.
I give up.
I’m sure you can figure the rest out. There’s no need to voice my reasons. Voice my pain. Voice anything other than this white flag of defeat.
I give up.
I said that so many times, and tried again. I really feel like this, This is it. Let’s hope so anyways.
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So I’m an anime crazed asian. I can tell you that upfront now.
I’m pretty obsessed. I still do my homework and stuff, but much of my free time is spent on anime/manga, or reading fiction/fanfiction. Or books. all the same. or music. still the same-ish.
Anyways.
So I was watching one of my favourite Detective Conan movies ever, and it occurred to me how sad the movie begins.
I’ve seen this film over and over. And it really hit home when I finally realized that this 10 year old boy genius was pushed to the extent that he wanted to commit suicide.
It’s not real, but still, just the thought of it hurts me. Imagine, being pushed so far at such a young age that you want to kill yourself. My soul is crying.
this is probably and solely, my largest problem.
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Save You.
Today I watched a wonderful movie. Sad, but wonderful.
It was kind of triggering though, which was most unfortunate on my end, although I still enjoyed the movie as best I could.
There was some talk of suicide, and just depression in general. Blaming oneself… that sort of thing…
And in class we talked about how people blame themselves, how we have psychological barriers, and I see that…
I feel like I don’t have as many barriers as others, but I haven’t embraced my faults either.
It’s hard to say. I’m not exactly chipper these days…
I dunno, just tough I guess. Having given the best I could on a friendship, and being told to give up. Having tried my very hardest.
Waiting patiently for the return of another… and still dealing with my own anxieties… about myself… and then of those around me.
I dedicate the song Save You by Simple Plan to all of you. it’s a wonderful song, and it’s pretty much portrays how I feel fairly often.
